Week 13 September 29 2010 9:21 a.m.
Sorry, I have not been updating much lately i got out of the habit of blogging once a week. but I am back!
My friend recently told me "Britt you need to slow down take a chill pill and relax" ... Now she said this when i got mad at my computer for being slow and when i started speeding a tad bit on the road and once again when i would run up or down the stairs. and then she would tell me "you speed through life ur always moving u need to slow down and enjoy the view" This meant nothing to me but a silly little joke. i laughed at her and was like "hahaha i don like bein patient my computer is too slow" and "haha ur right i do need to slow down because i am speeding (meaning on the road) and thats not good sorry." As i was driving to school this morning i thought to myself hey i might go through life fast but i know one thing i am slow about... RELATIONSHIPS. I like to take it slow and not move fast in a relationship... then i realized wait.... i may not move fast physically with a guy... but i definately dont take my time in relationships either. im quick to start falling for a guy, and i fall in love pretty fast. Im too quick to say i love you or want to say it. I been quick get close to a friend (like a girl) and am so fast at being ready to call them a bestie. So In all actuality...nothing in my life is slow. except for mayb tests. when i take an exam i take my time but i get fidgity and distracted and cant focus or move around and look around alot. This all makes the statement from my friend true! i speed through life. I realize i need to stop and enoy the moments enjoy the picture paint a beautiful painting.
I come to the conclusion that maybe i speed (in life) because i get anxious. i cant sit still or focus because of my ADHD. i like to rush through things. i cant wait to get somewhere. i need to calm my jets. im movin like a rocket. just movin through life.
I just recently liked this one guy and i actually tried my hardest to hold back, and just let it be natural. This was so hard me because like i said im fast moving i just wanted everything to happen, talk about how we feel, fall in love, and just go go go. but if every one of my relationships is like that then how could i ever enjoy a one, truly enjoy it! I am so quick to want to find my future husband and get married. I am young i need to stop meeting someone and getting stuck to the idea of them just because i want to speed through life and move to the next stage of life and find my future hubby. I am young if i speed through these years then once im older and married with a family im gonna wander what happened to being young wat happened to those years they just flew by. And this precious time i would never be able to get back! so ive come to understand I say im enjoying each moment and every second that goes by but im not. I am just rushing through. Saying isn't doing. Ive come to the conclusion that we all, yes ALL not just me, need to stop saying and start doing. we ALL need to stop speeding and just slow down. we ALL could use a little break, a little time to relax, enoy the world around us, enjoy every moment and paint a picture. so all you speeders out there... have you ever stepped back and taken a look at your picures... Now that i am i see just a blob of random colors... while it may be pretty and colorful, it is just a blob, a blob of randomness, mayb even a blob of nothing. But if we take our time in life, take a breath, stop and enjoy the view, enjoy each moment, we will paint a prettier picture... and then wen we take a step back to look at the pictures we're painting we'll see something more, something greater then we would have ever thought or expected. we will see a MASTERPIECE of beauty. Things we've done, People we've met, places we've been, and memories we've made. Everything will be clearer, and we'll be happier ultimately.
I want my life to be a masterpiece of beauty not a blob of random nothingness. So from now on i am vowing to take everything slower, take my time, relax, enjoy everything. Not just say this but do this! What about you? What do you want your life to be. A rush, where every memory every place every person youve met, is all just a blur. OR A beautiful moment, where every memory every place every person youve met, is all a wonderful blessing that you can remember and enjoy.
Readers, take a step back. stop what you're doing right now, and think about your life, how fast or slow it is, how youve gone through relationships and other moments. Do you relate to things ive said, rushing through just tryin to get to the next stage... or takin it slow letting everything be natural (esp relationships) and enjoying each and every view?
Think about it for a moment.
~If you realize your speedy gonzalez like me then slow down. enjoy life, stop saying and start doing, and Paint your life as a masterpiece, NOT a blob.
~If your at a normal slower pace... KEEP IT UP, you have so much to enjoy and look back at! Your life is beautiful! :) you should be happy! :)
Afterall the Tortoise beat the Hare, didn't He?
So Im taking it slow! My Life WILL be a masterpiece :) <3
~<3 Love you guys :) ~yur sunshine grl~
