Week 76 Day 3 March 10 2012 8:38 a.m.
So what can I say about Friends. I have had a lot in my life. I went from not having any friends growing up... to having a lot of friends that always leave me, turn on me, or ditch me. Friendship is an important thing for a girl, whether she realizes it or not, whether she admits it or not. For some girls it is easier to have guy friends, and for others it is easier and more important for them to have girl friends.
I guess I will start off by explaining a situation that recently happened with me. You see, I have this friend. Well... i had this friend, who we'll refer to as pudding-cup. We met while I was dating a guy, we'll call him gumdrop. I went on retreat and I met a girl from my old high school that was on the retreat with other students. We became friends and as time went on, we realized that we had so much more in common than we expected. It was no accident that God brought us together to share in life's many trials,, as well as adventures. We noticed that everything she was going through at that time, I had gone through exactly the same when I was in high school.
(keep in mind we're a few years apart... how many I'm not sure, i don't care because it didn't doesn't and never will matter to me.)
So, I was there to help her through it, through all her tough times. Friendship means a lot to me, everything actually. i have been through a lot so I value the friends that I do have, while I have them and I hate losing them. Losing a good friend is never fun or easy, but it happens, it's life. Well, we became besties. I thought of her like a sister and our relationship was different than any other. We were so silly, and goofy, and crazy together. It was definitely all fun.
Later, on in May, Gumdrop broke up with me.
(that's a different story in itself and it doesn't matter cuz I've moved on)
When we broke up it was very hard for me, but i had my best friend there for me through it all. I knew I'd get through it with her by my side, as well as the support I had from my family. One day, I realized she had been talking to him and it bothered me because I was still hurt and upset over what happened, and being my best friend I was sure she'd understand that. So I explained to her how I was feeling and why it bothered me that they were talking. She said she can't hate him but she understands and won't be friends with him. (side note: I never asked her to hate him, and I explained that to her too.)
Long story short, She ended up dating him, after being dishonest with me several times. once she hung out with him and i found out and expressed how it bothered me and she said she wouldn't anymore, then it happened again and again, and finally she asked him to homecoming without informing me of it. So as upset as I was, I calmly asked why she was getting closer to him when it bothered me, and she informed me that she liked him a little and he was one of her best friends, but she wouldn't date him. and I made her promise that. So she did. That night, much to my surprise, they were in a relationship.
This hurt, and there was nothing else to do, but end our friendship. A month or two later, I was so caught up in anger, hatred, and resentment, toward them both, more so her (cuz she was my bestie and I missed her), and toward the situation, that I couldn't focus on moving on, loving someone else, and trusting the friends I had made at college. I knew that god forgives us no matter how much we run from Him or hurt Him. I knew what I had to do.
I called both of them and apologized for the way that I had reacted, and the things I had said cuz I knew how i reacted and The words I said weren't Christ like. Then I forgave them both for hurting me. Talking to Pudding-cup was the hardest for me. I cried my eyes out, so did she. I almost wanted to accept a re-friendship, but I knew it was best to just let go, at least for that point in time, especially since I couldn't trust her anymore. I mean I knew that if I let myself, I could/would trust her again, so I couldn't do that to myself because it could cause more hurt later on.
Well eventually my relationship with gumdrop started to reform and we became friends again. We even hung out over Christmas break. In the beginning of January, I was still home on break, and I found a scrapbook that was decorated on the outside but blank on the inside. It was what Pudding-cup gave me on my 21st birthday. Upon seeing this, I sobbed for a few hours on my bedroom floor. You see, no one had ever giving me pictures in picture frames, or collages of our friendship, or anything valuable like that before, and it has been something I have longed for my whole life. The reason is because when you receive gifts like that it shows how much the other person values your friendship as much as you do. I immediately texted Pudding-cup and explained how much I missed her asking if we could try to start over and be friends again. She agreed.
Well, even more recently, just the other day, I was talking to Gumdrop about hanging out over spring break (which is this week March 9-18). I started stalking Pudding-cup on fb and I realized how much I miss her, because I felt like we haven't really been talking at all, so I talked to her about being friends again and getting close. i realized i wanted to hang out with both her and Gumdrop (even though they are dating.) She agreed to hanging out... but looking at her tumblr and seeing posts referring to me as her "boyfriends ex" and how shes jealous or I'm bothering her... I came to an assumption that she doesn't think of me as a friend anymore. While I *am*, indeed, her boyfriends ex, 1. I have a boyfriend who loves me for me and won't ever give up on me, 2 I would never want to hang out with him as anything more than friends, 3 I care more about her friendship than his. I always have and always will. Being referred to as boyfriends ex, however true it may be, has such a negative connotation to it and hurts deeply, especially that she doesn't seem to 'want' to think of me as anything more than her boyfriends ex.
I realize that people may not like me, and I understand that. Hence, I don't care what others think of me, I am who I am, and I don't let others bring me down. However, it's really hard to not care what an old best friend who you miss dearly thinks of you. So i did wish we could start over at one point, and I *DO* wish a guy never got between us. I *DO* wish that things went better between us, and accepting the reality that it wasn't going to get better, was hard. To be honest, this *WAS* the first and only fight we had ever had (the one that ended our friendship) and making up after such a dramatic ending, seems to be nearly impossible. And I used to hope it would be God's will for us to be good friends again, but now I see it's better that we're not for many reasons, and I have more loyal friends in my life at this point, who are only going to build me up.
I know that even though this couldnt beom irked out, lots of problems in relationships CAN be fixed, it just takes time, and effort from both people. In the long run it will make your relationship and you stronger. But as I know how it feels to be trash talked by an old friend, and had hopes it wouldn't turn out that way, I would like to pass on some wisdom and advice for you guys.
You have to realize that NOT everyone in the world is going to like you. It's just the way it is. No matter who you are or what you do. Even if you are the most happiest person ever, you aren't going to be able to please everyone. So just be yourself. Furthermore, Friendship... well it doesn't matter how close you are as friends. You are still going to hurt each other. Sometimes you may lose that best friend... but sometimes you won't. Same thing is true for relationships. You may fight, things may not always be perfect, you may get impatient with each other, but that shouldn't end the relationship. Unless the person is cheating on you or the relationship is unhealthy for some other reason... you should fight FOR each other, not WITH or AGAINST each other. Keep going no matter what. Stay loyal to each other and work through the tough times, however tough they may be. That's love, That's commitment. If you truly love someone you won't give up on them, through their strengths and weaknesses, throughs their fears and dreams, through the good and bad, through thick and thin.-whether friendship or Relationship. That's what God's love is. He stands there waiting for us with open arms ready to embrace us NO MATTER WHAT. No matter how we fail, fall, or falter... He is always there, even when we completely turn our backs on Him or cuss Him out, He still waits for us to come back, ready to love us as much as, if not more than He did before.
So don't give up on your best friend. If she/he lets you go, wait for her/him to come back. If they deserve it, give them another chance and work through it, because most of the time, fights are supposed to make you stronger. They help you to learn each others differences and if best friends don't fight or argue every once in a while, than they aren't best friends, and they probably aren't going to last too long. No one's perfect, therefore, no relationship can be perfect. Even sisters fight. In fact, sisters wouldn't be sisters if they didn't.
"Though friendship is not quick to burn, It is explosive stuff.",
"It's so sad how something so small and stupid can ruin a friendship."~Unknown,
"Men kick friendship around like a football, but it doesn’t seem to crack. Women treat it like glass and it goes to pieces."
"Three things of life that are most valuable - Love, self respect and friends.",
"There is nothing on this earth more to be prized than true friendship."
~St Thomas Aquinas,
"Be who are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter, and those who matter don't mind."
~Dr. Seuss
"Two persons cannot long be friends if they cannot forgive each others little failings."
~Jean De La Bruyere
"Friendship flourishes at the fountain of forgiveness."
~William Arthur Ward
"Your heart won't heal right if you keep tearing out the sutures"
~Luv ya SUNSHINE GIRL :] <3
Saturday, March 10, 2012
Monday, December 26, 2011
BLOG8: The Crystalline Orchid
It spreads it's wings to the heavens above
Like a being angelic protecting our souls.
The azurine glow through the cold starry night
Pierces our souls with its observing might
The mystical sounds it hums as it sleeps
Plays a melodious tune that sings to our hearts.
And as I stare with blinded eyes
It returns my gaze with a magical roar
It's bedazzling enchanting smile so bright,
Purifies my soul with its fluorescent sparkling sight.
Like a heavenly spirit trapped inside
A silky, delicate, glistening object,
Just longing and striving to burst free
Just radiating sweet incandescent aromas
Magnificently scintillating under the moon,
Like the glowing reflection of the luminescent waters
Glittering underneath the dark velvety sky.
Like a being angelic protecting our souls.
The azurine glow through the cold starry night
Pierces our souls with its observing might
The mystical sounds it hums as it sleeps
Plays a melodious tune that sings to our hearts.
And as I stare with blinded eyes
It returns my gaze with a magical roar
It's bedazzling enchanting smile so bright,
Purifies my soul with its fluorescent sparkling sight.
Like a heavenly spirit trapped inside
A silky, delicate, glistening object,
Just longing and striving to burst free
Just radiating sweet incandescent aromas
Magnificently scintillating under the moon,
Like the glowing reflection of the luminescent waters
Glittering underneath the dark velvety sky.
Wednesday, July 27, 2011
BLOG7: Be the Difference
Week 43 July 27 2011 8:38 p.m.
I have not had an easy time when it has come to being happy and fitting in. Truth be told.. i have never really fit in at all. it hurt me so bad. and throughout the years this scarred me. i never felt good about myself. While people watching me from the sidelines thought, "that girls innocent what we she have to feel bad about" or "oh shes a miss goody two shoes" or even family and friends "she's an angel, she has nothing to worry about, she beautiful and amazing" ... I was thinking "my life sucks, I've never had friends. What's wrong with me!" See no one ever knew... I mean I guess my parents knew how I felt... but they said all the right things... exactly what a parent is supposed to say! and for a while it worked. but the strength they gave me with their encouragement only lasted for so long and then they'd have to repeat themselves over and over. Those lectures never do good for anyone. Sometimes, I hate to say it, but i even felt left out by my own sisters, sometimes. This caused me so much insecurities about myself. As i grew older and bad things kept happening I tried to stay strong through it all and I did for the most part but I couldn't help feeling like there had to be something wrong with me and I would break down. "Why does this always happen to me" "How come I never have true friends" "what's wrong with me" "God why'd you make me like this"
Well as the years went on I had days where I would know that I am different and I am special and I am amazing and strong and no one will bring me down but when something would happen It would hurt more each time because of all the stuff I have been through.
well just recently my bf broke up with me in may. and one day in June I was hurting so bad and I felt so alone. I have always felt somewhat invisible.
this guy completely broke my heart. And I even felt like the people that loved me, like family and friends, weren't around or didn't understand how this guy was making me feel at times. and finally my sister comes in my room to talk to me and she said "Britt, you're just different and sometimes people can't handle that. At this i turned around and ignored her. She left and later asked why I wouldn't talk to her!
See that was so harsh, here I am sobbing and depressed Hating myself and she says Im different and people can't handle it...? how is that supposed to make me feel better.
Later on she explained in full what she meant and I still felt too closed off to try to understand what she was saying. However, as I started to feel better, I realized how right she was. I didn't want to hear it esp. at that moment. But let me put it this way
WHY FIT IN WHEN YOU ARE BORN TO STAND OUT ?
that is a quote from the movie what a girl wants. but Its one of my life quotes.
I AM different and I AM special. Im crazy, Im loud, Way too hyper for some people. I can be weird, or obnoxious. and Im mature in a lot of ways but immature playfully ... meaning I know how to be serious when it's the right time, but I will always be a kid at heart.
I am emotional, and a handful! but overall I am just a burst of sunshine who only wants to make others happy.
I'll admit my desire to fit in makes me a bit clingy sometimes but who doesn't have annoying flaws? we're human It's just how it is! BUT it's the fight that counts. I know who I am, I know who I'm meant to be.
I'm not meant to fit in and the fact that I have been through so much crap is what has brought me to where and to who I am. Its what makes me special. Now, My strength comes from God and who I am in HIS eyes, according to HIS will for me. and the encouragement I get from friends and family, isn't where my strength comes from, rather what helps build up my strength from God, even more.
I know I am meant to be different and to stand out. Im not supposed to be "popular" or "fit in" Im supposed to do something great but in a humble way... that's what connects ME personally to Christ!
(what connects you?)
If I didn't accept the difference in me, then how could I make a difference in the world! I am perfect just the way I am.
It's not about being popular and having a lot of friends.. It's not about the "quantity", It's the Quality that counts. I may not have a ton of friends. or everyone/most people in a school or building "like" me... but I may have one or two or just a few really good, close, TRUE friends Who I am so very blessed to even know in my life. I don't care about the Quantity of friends I have in my life, It's the QUALITY of those few select, SPECIAL, and AMAZING, friends that I DO have!!!
I embrace who I am. I will be different and rock it. I won't be anyone but me!
"You've gotta stand for something, or you're gonna fall for anything"
"I'd rather be hated for who I am, than loved for who I'm not!"
"Be the change that you want to see in the world"
"Why fit in, When you were born to stand out"
~Luv ya SUNSHINE GIRL :] <3
I have not had an easy time when it has come to being happy and fitting in. Truth be told.. i have never really fit in at all. it hurt me so bad. and throughout the years this scarred me. i never felt good about myself. While people watching me from the sidelines thought, "that girls innocent what we she have to feel bad about" or "oh shes a miss goody two shoes" or even family and friends "she's an angel, she has nothing to worry about, she beautiful and amazing" ... I was thinking "my life sucks, I've never had friends. What's wrong with me!" See no one ever knew... I mean I guess my parents knew how I felt... but they said all the right things... exactly what a parent is supposed to say! and for a while it worked. but the strength they gave me with their encouragement only lasted for so long and then they'd have to repeat themselves over and over. Those lectures never do good for anyone. Sometimes, I hate to say it, but i even felt left out by my own sisters, sometimes. This caused me so much insecurities about myself. As i grew older and bad things kept happening I tried to stay strong through it all and I did for the most part but I couldn't help feeling like there had to be something wrong with me and I would break down. "Why does this always happen to me" "How come I never have true friends" "what's wrong with me" "God why'd you make me like this"
Well as the years went on I had days where I would know that I am different and I am special and I am amazing and strong and no one will bring me down but when something would happen It would hurt more each time because of all the stuff I have been through.
well just recently my bf broke up with me in may. and one day in June I was hurting so bad and I felt so alone. I have always felt somewhat invisible.
this guy completely broke my heart. And I even felt like the people that loved me, like family and friends, weren't around or didn't understand how this guy was making me feel at times. and finally my sister comes in my room to talk to me and she said "Britt, you're just different and sometimes people can't handle that. At this i turned around and ignored her. She left and later asked why I wouldn't talk to her!
See that was so harsh, here I am sobbing and depressed Hating myself and she says Im different and people can't handle it...? how is that supposed to make me feel better.
Later on she explained in full what she meant and I still felt too closed off to try to understand what she was saying. However, as I started to feel better, I realized how right she was. I didn't want to hear it esp. at that moment. But let me put it this way
WHY FIT IN WHEN YOU ARE BORN TO STAND OUT ?
that is a quote from the movie what a girl wants. but Its one of my life quotes.
I AM different and I AM special. Im crazy, Im loud, Way too hyper for some people. I can be weird, or obnoxious. and Im mature in a lot of ways but immature playfully ... meaning I know how to be serious when it's the right time, but I will always be a kid at heart.
I am emotional, and a handful! but overall I am just a burst of sunshine who only wants to make others happy.
I'll admit my desire to fit in makes me a bit clingy sometimes but who doesn't have annoying flaws? we're human It's just how it is! BUT it's the fight that counts. I know who I am, I know who I'm meant to be.
I'm not meant to fit in and the fact that I have been through so much crap is what has brought me to where and to who I am. Its what makes me special. Now, My strength comes from God and who I am in HIS eyes, according to HIS will for me. and the encouragement I get from friends and family, isn't where my strength comes from, rather what helps build up my strength from God, even more.
I know I am meant to be different and to stand out. Im not supposed to be "popular" or "fit in" Im supposed to do something great but in a humble way... that's what connects ME personally to Christ!
(what connects you?)
If I didn't accept the difference in me, then how could I make a difference in the world! I am perfect just the way I am.
It's not about being popular and having a lot of friends.. It's not about the "quantity", It's the Quality that counts. I may not have a ton of friends. or everyone/most people in a school or building "like" me... but I may have one or two or just a few really good, close, TRUE friends Who I am so very blessed to even know in my life. I don't care about the Quantity of friends I have in my life, It's the QUALITY of those few select, SPECIAL, and AMAZING, friends that I DO have!!!
I embrace who I am. I will be different and rock it. I won't be anyone but me!
"You've gotta stand for something, or you're gonna fall for anything"
"I'd rather be hated for who I am, than loved for who I'm not!"
"Be the change that you want to see in the world"
"Why fit in, When you were born to stand out"
~Luv ya SUNSHINE GIRL :] <3
Friday, July 22, 2011
BLOG6: The Strength In You
Week 42 July 22 2011 3:25 p.m.
Many of us often feel low because someone has hurt or betrayed us. I just got out of a relationship and the break up has been rough for me but Im staying strong and getting through it day by day. the pain hurts but it will stop if you give it time. I hated hearing time heals. because all I could think about was how I felt at the moment and how depressed I was. there were days I wished I didn’t have to live anymore. but I’ve been realizing its okay. and it will be okay. Yes time heals it’s true, but it’s not about time. and the healing. it’s about what you’re living for. I am living for God. and He has a greater plan. greater than my own. I am not living for me. to kill myself would be selfish.
when you’re depressed don’t think about the negative stuff in your life. While that is the easiest thing at the time and all you can think about, you need to stay strong and keep your head held high try to change your perspective. thinking of what you do have and what you ARE good at, what God has blessed you with, is the hardest thing to do when you’re soooo upset but if you take a step back, BREATHE, calm down (pull yourself together) then focus on the blessings and the people who have it worse than you, then you will be able to be happy. Remember this, Don’t do the easy thing, do the Hardest thing, even if it means u suffer a bit or a lot. Sometimes the Hardest thing and the right thing ARE the same. and the hardest thing is what makes you stronger and grow, even if you’re faking the hardest thing at the time.
a friend once said… Fake it til you make it, and this statement is true in many ways.
a few of my favorite life quotes are this
“Even Diamonds start as Coal”
”Even the best fall down sometimes”
”I could have missed the pain, but i'd have had to miss the dance”
”Here comes the sun, and I say, It's alright”
God’s love is so big and you can not separate love and suffering. everyone suffers at some point in their life. some more then others. but if we want to be true christians… or have true love… we NEED to suffer or make sacrifices. it is in that suffering that we love more through our selflessness and it is in that suffering that we are more closely connected to Christ because of what He suffered for us.
You are so beautiful and so amazing. you have so much value. you are here because God wants to use YOU for something greater then you could imagine for yourself. you have so much strength in you. you just have to dig deep inside of your heart to find the true you. dont try to fit in when your born to stand out find yourself and be yourself ... just take time to do you. because you are AAHHHHmazing :] you are so very loved. believe in yourself and your gifts. the talents God gave you. you may think you arent good at anything. i have felt that way many times... but i have found that my talents are more hidden inside of who i am they arent just outwardly things like singing or playing an instrument or sport or acting... theyre deeper they have to do with my personality traits i am super compassionate i can use that gift to serve God on missions trips and make a difference. i can use that blessing to help other people when they need help and i can relate to them. other things like my passion for kids i could nanny or work/volunteer in an orphanage or daycare. i could make a great mom. or even my passion for animals and the fact that writing calms my emotions. i could make a great writer. so you see if you feel useless and like your not meant for anything, like you don't have any special gifts or talents... you do. you just need to find them within yourself. remember you are a princess (or if ur a guy reading this you are a prince)
~AND know this:
YOUR LIFE IS A PRECIOUS GIFT AND IT IS BEAUTIFUL. FIND THE BEAUTY IN YOUR LIFE AND EMBELLISH IT, BUT DO IT WITH A SMILE BECAUSE THEN YOU WILL SEE YOUR WORTH AND YOU WILL LEARN TO BE HAPPY!!!
~<3 Love you guys :) ~yur sunshine grl~
Many of us often feel low because someone has hurt or betrayed us. I just got out of a relationship and the break up has been rough for me but Im staying strong and getting through it day by day. the pain hurts but it will stop if you give it time. I hated hearing time heals. because all I could think about was how I felt at the moment and how depressed I was. there were days I wished I didn’t have to live anymore. but I’ve been realizing its okay. and it will be okay. Yes time heals it’s true, but it’s not about time. and the healing. it’s about what you’re living for. I am living for God. and He has a greater plan. greater than my own. I am not living for me. to kill myself would be selfish.
when you’re depressed don’t think about the negative stuff in your life. While that is the easiest thing at the time and all you can think about, you need to stay strong and keep your head held high try to change your perspective. thinking of what you do have and what you ARE good at, what God has blessed you with, is the hardest thing to do when you’re soooo upset but if you take a step back, BREATHE, calm down (pull yourself together) then focus on the blessings and the people who have it worse than you, then you will be able to be happy. Remember this, Don’t do the easy thing, do the Hardest thing, even if it means u suffer a bit or a lot. Sometimes the Hardest thing and the right thing ARE the same. and the hardest thing is what makes you stronger and grow, even if you’re faking the hardest thing at the time.
a friend once said… Fake it til you make it, and this statement is true in many ways.
a few of my favorite life quotes are this
“Even Diamonds start as Coal”
”Even the best fall down sometimes”
”I could have missed the pain, but i'd have had to miss the dance”
”Here comes the sun, and I say, It's alright”
God’s love is so big and you can not separate love and suffering. everyone suffers at some point in their life. some more then others. but if we want to be true christians… or have true love… we NEED to suffer or make sacrifices. it is in that suffering that we love more through our selflessness and it is in that suffering that we are more closely connected to Christ because of what He suffered for us.
You are so beautiful and so amazing. you have so much value. you are here because God wants to use YOU for something greater then you could imagine for yourself. you have so much strength in you. you just have to dig deep inside of your heart to find the true you. dont try to fit in when your born to stand out find yourself and be yourself ... just take time to do you. because you are AAHHHHmazing :] you are so very loved. believe in yourself and your gifts. the talents God gave you. you may think you arent good at anything. i have felt that way many times... but i have found that my talents are more hidden inside of who i am they arent just outwardly things like singing or playing an instrument or sport or acting... theyre deeper they have to do with my personality traits i am super compassionate i can use that gift to serve God on missions trips and make a difference. i can use that blessing to help other people when they need help and i can relate to them. other things like my passion for kids i could nanny or work/volunteer in an orphanage or daycare. i could make a great mom. or even my passion for animals and the fact that writing calms my emotions. i could make a great writer. so you see if you feel useless and like your not meant for anything, like you don't have any special gifts or talents... you do. you just need to find them within yourself. remember you are a princess (or if ur a guy reading this you are a prince)
~AND know this:
YOUR LIFE IS A PRECIOUS GIFT AND IT IS BEAUTIFUL. FIND THE BEAUTY IN YOUR LIFE AND EMBELLISH IT, BUT DO IT WITH A SMILE BECAUSE THEN YOU WILL SEE YOUR WORTH AND YOU WILL LEARN TO BE HAPPY!!!
~<3 Love you guys :) ~yur sunshine grl~
Thursday, November 4, 2010
DREAM GIRL
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I'm the type of girl who will wear sunglasses in the rain, in the dark, or in the middle of winter just because I want to,
I'm the type of girl who will be fashionable and cool cause I like to make a statement..
I'm the type of girl who will wait for the right moment to kiss,
who will wait for the right guy to date,
The type who will be crazy but fun,
I'm the type of girl who doesn't care what people think,
who will do what she wants to when she wants,
I'm the type of girl who will mis-match or wear something crazy just because I can,
I'm the type who will make you laugh,
who will dance in the rain,
who will be hyper or crazy just to make life interesting,
I'm the type of girl you're going to chase after because
I AM everything you know you want and need, but I won't let you have me...
I AM the one who will make you laugh and be there when you cry,
And you'll go crazy for me but I'll play hard to get...
I AM the girl my friends love to be with because
I AM A DREAM GIRL....
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We were given two hands to hold,
Two legs to walk,
Two eyes to see,
Two ears to listen,
But why only one heart?
Because the other one
Was given to someone for us to find
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Wednesday, September 29, 2010
BLOG5: Life should be a masterpiece.
Week 13 September 29 2010 9:21 a.m.
Sorry, I have not been updating much lately i got out of the habit of blogging once a week. but I am back!
My friend recently told me "Britt you need to slow down take a chill pill and relax" ... Now she said this when i got mad at my computer for being slow and when i started speeding a tad bit on the road and once again when i would run up or down the stairs. and then she would tell me "you speed through life ur always moving u need to slow down and enjoy the view" This meant nothing to me but a silly little joke. i laughed at her and was like "hahaha i don like bein patient my computer is too slow" and "haha ur right i do need to slow down because i am speeding (meaning on the road) and thats not good sorry." As i was driving to school this morning i thought to myself hey i might go through life fast but i know one thing i am slow about... RELATIONSHIPS. I like to take it slow and not move fast in a relationship... then i realized wait.... i may not move fast physically with a guy... but i definately dont take my time in relationships either. im quick to start falling for a guy, and i fall in love pretty fast. Im too quick to say i love you or want to say it. I been quick get close to a friend (like a girl) and am so fast at being ready to call them a bestie. So In all actuality...nothing in my life is slow. except for mayb tests. when i take an exam i take my time but i get fidgity and distracted and cant focus or move around and look around alot. This all makes the statement from my friend true! i speed through life. I realize i need to stop and enoy the moments enjoy the picture paint a beautiful painting.
I come to the conclusion that maybe i speed (in life) because i get anxious. i cant sit still or focus because of my ADHD. i like to rush through things. i cant wait to get somewhere. i need to calm my jets. im movin like a rocket. just movin through life.
I just recently liked this one guy and i actually tried my hardest to hold back, and just let it be natural. This was so hard me because like i said im fast moving i just wanted everything to happen, talk about how we feel, fall in love, and just go go go. but if every one of my relationships is like that then how could i ever enjoy a one, truly enjoy it! I am so quick to want to find my future husband and get married. I am young i need to stop meeting someone and getting stuck to the idea of them just because i want to speed through life and move to the next stage of life and find my future hubby. I am young if i speed through these years then once im older and married with a family im gonna wander what happened to being young wat happened to those years they just flew by. And this precious time i would never be able to get back! so ive come to understand I say im enjoying each moment and every second that goes by but im not. I am just rushing through. Saying isn't doing. Ive come to the conclusion that we all, yes ALL not just me, need to stop saying and start doing. we ALL need to stop speeding and just slow down. we ALL could use a little break, a little time to relax, enoy the world around us, enjoy every moment and paint a picture. so all you speeders out there... have you ever stepped back and taken a look at your picures... Now that i am i see just a blob of random colors... while it may be pretty and colorful, it is just a blob, a blob of randomness, mayb even a blob of nothing. But if we take our time in life, take a breath, stop and enjoy the view, enjoy each moment, we will paint a prettier picture... and then wen we take a step back to look at the pictures we're painting we'll see something more, something greater then we would have ever thought or expected. we will see a MASTERPIECE of beauty. Things we've done, People we've met, places we've been, and memories we've made. Everything will be clearer, and we'll be happier ultimately.
I want my life to be a masterpiece of beauty not a blob of random nothingness. So from now on i am vowing to take everything slower, take my time, relax, enjoy everything. Not just say this but do this! What about you? What do you want your life to be. A rush, where every memory every place every person youve met, is all just a blur. OR A beautiful moment, where every memory every place every person youve met, is all a wonderful blessing that you can remember and enjoy.
Readers, take a step back. stop what you're doing right now, and think about your life, how fast or slow it is, how youve gone through relationships and other moments. Do you relate to things ive said, rushing through just tryin to get to the next stage... or takin it slow letting everything be natural (esp relationships) and enjoying each and every view?
Think about it for a moment.
~If you realize your speedy gonzalez like me then slow down. enjoy life, stop saying and start doing, and Paint your life as a masterpiece, NOT a blob.
~If your at a normal slower pace... KEEP IT UP, you have so much to enjoy and look back at! Your life is beautiful! :) you should be happy! :)
Afterall the Tortoise beat the Hare, didn't He?
So Im taking it slow! My Life WILL be a masterpiece :) <3
~<3 Love you guys :) ~yur sunshine grl~
Sorry, I have not been updating much lately i got out of the habit of blogging once a week. but I am back!
My friend recently told me "Britt you need to slow down take a chill pill and relax" ... Now she said this when i got mad at my computer for being slow and when i started speeding a tad bit on the road and once again when i would run up or down the stairs. and then she would tell me "you speed through life ur always moving u need to slow down and enjoy the view" This meant nothing to me but a silly little joke. i laughed at her and was like "hahaha i don like bein patient my computer is too slow" and "haha ur right i do need to slow down because i am speeding (meaning on the road) and thats not good sorry." As i was driving to school this morning i thought to myself hey i might go through life fast but i know one thing i am slow about... RELATIONSHIPS. I like to take it slow and not move fast in a relationship... then i realized wait.... i may not move fast physically with a guy... but i definately dont take my time in relationships either. im quick to start falling for a guy, and i fall in love pretty fast. Im too quick to say i love you or want to say it. I been quick get close to a friend (like a girl) and am so fast at being ready to call them a bestie. So In all actuality...nothing in my life is slow. except for mayb tests. when i take an exam i take my time but i get fidgity and distracted and cant focus or move around and look around alot. This all makes the statement from my friend true! i speed through life. I realize i need to stop and enoy the moments enjoy the picture paint a beautiful painting.
I come to the conclusion that maybe i speed (in life) because i get anxious. i cant sit still or focus because of my ADHD. i like to rush through things. i cant wait to get somewhere. i need to calm my jets. im movin like a rocket. just movin through life.
I just recently liked this one guy and i actually tried my hardest to hold back, and just let it be natural. This was so hard me because like i said im fast moving i just wanted everything to happen, talk about how we feel, fall in love, and just go go go. but if every one of my relationships is like that then how could i ever enjoy a one, truly enjoy it! I am so quick to want to find my future husband and get married. I am young i need to stop meeting someone and getting stuck to the idea of them just because i want to speed through life and move to the next stage of life and find my future hubby. I am young if i speed through these years then once im older and married with a family im gonna wander what happened to being young wat happened to those years they just flew by. And this precious time i would never be able to get back! so ive come to understand I say im enjoying each moment and every second that goes by but im not. I am just rushing through. Saying isn't doing. Ive come to the conclusion that we all, yes ALL not just me, need to stop saying and start doing. we ALL need to stop speeding and just slow down. we ALL could use a little break, a little time to relax, enoy the world around us, enjoy every moment and paint a picture. so all you speeders out there... have you ever stepped back and taken a look at your picures... Now that i am i see just a blob of random colors... while it may be pretty and colorful, it is just a blob, a blob of randomness, mayb even a blob of nothing. But if we take our time in life, take a breath, stop and enjoy the view, enjoy each moment, we will paint a prettier picture... and then wen we take a step back to look at the pictures we're painting we'll see something more, something greater then we would have ever thought or expected. we will see a MASTERPIECE of beauty. Things we've done, People we've met, places we've been, and memories we've made. Everything will be clearer, and we'll be happier ultimately.
I want my life to be a masterpiece of beauty not a blob of random nothingness. So from now on i am vowing to take everything slower, take my time, relax, enjoy everything. Not just say this but do this! What about you? What do you want your life to be. A rush, where every memory every place every person youve met, is all just a blur. OR A beautiful moment, where every memory every place every person youve met, is all a wonderful blessing that you can remember and enjoy.
Readers, take a step back. stop what you're doing right now, and think about your life, how fast or slow it is, how youve gone through relationships and other moments. Do you relate to things ive said, rushing through just tryin to get to the next stage... or takin it slow letting everything be natural (esp relationships) and enjoying each and every view?
Think about it for a moment.
~If you realize your speedy gonzalez like me then slow down. enjoy life, stop saying and start doing, and Paint your life as a masterpiece, NOT a blob.
~If your at a normal slower pace... KEEP IT UP, you have so much to enjoy and look back at! Your life is beautiful! :) you should be happy! :)
Afterall the Tortoise beat the Hare, didn't He?
So Im taking it slow! My Life WILL be a masterpiece :) <3
~<3 Love you guys :) ~yur sunshine grl~
Wednesday, June 30, 2010
BLOG4: Never Give Up!
Day 13 June 30 2010 5:30 p.m.
Hey guys :)
I know this blog is early but I wont be available til next friday and I didn't want to have to skip a week!
so this weeks topic is giving up, or should i say not giving up. hahaha.
"Never let the fear of striking out,
keep you from playing the game."
this is one of my favorite quotes. when you fall down just get right back up like the saying,
"its not about waiting for the storm to pass,
its about learning to dance in the rain"
These two quotes are the truest quotes i have ever heard or known! when life gets you down dance through it work through it push through it don't give up and lose hope. don't let anything bring you down. now if you have a broken heart or lost someone close to you or you just need to cry by all means let it out... but don't let it take over your entire life cuz then you will fall apart and you'll end up feeling like your alone in a dark room... and youll probly feel that way for a while. you have to keep yourself going. encourage yourself to do fun things. like when im upset i listen to my favorite songs. I personally believe music is the ultimate happiness meaning no matter what mood your in it will cheer u up or just make your day better. Life without music would be like cake without icing or summer without the sun or the beach. what kind of world would that be? we cant live without music find a song you like or maybe a few burn them to ur i-pod or cd and listen to them whenever ur down but it has to be an uplifting favorite never grow old and most importantly FUN song, like california girls i love rolling my windows down and blairing it in the car, or breakaway by kelly clarkson because its inspiring. Never give up on yourself. and dont let a guy (or a girl) bring you down because God has so much in store for us. and because the one is out there you have to let them find you. You deserve so much. You are too beautiful to cry. You are too good for heartbreak. Push through it no matter how hard it is. I did it, so i know you can! just know your true love is looking for you. Wait for them.
In another sense, don't ever give up on tasks you do. If you do, you may not get to where you want to be in life. My Best Friend took a really hard test for a Nursing program and didn't pass but she didnt give up she got right back up and is taking it again. and again. until she makes it. because thats her future and her passion. What would have happened if Thomas Edison gave up on the lightbulb, or if Stevie Wonder gave up on music, What would our world be then? My dad wouldnt be a doctor if he gave up. cuz there were many times he tried and failed but he kept trying. I wouldnt be the strong person i am today if i gave up on myself when this jerk broke my heart. I wouldnt be even closer to my dream of working with animals if i gave up when i started falling in Chemistry.
For the past two days i have been trying to make these two cds. 35 songs TOTALL. Our computer sucks and is super slow and nothing works on it cuz its got almost no memory left. So you can imagine making these cds from an itunes playlist would be hell. oh and i forgot to mention that our cd burner is broken. so now i bet your thinking wow ur crazy and stupid to try to make cds when u already know it wont work. hahaha well yes i am crazy but hey i didnt give up it didnt work at all yesterday and i tried over and over and over again and i tried many different things i just couldnt figure it out i knew there had to be some loophole, some way to get it to work. so today i got back on when i woke up and when i stuck the cd in the computer guess what popped up i-tunes... now wait a minute i never tried i-tunes... and well guess what it worked :) yay but i couldnt get the second cd to work its been driving me crazy all day its taking me hours and i wanted to give up but i knew that since i got the first cd there had to be some way to get the second one. so i kept trying and hours later WAHLA i got it :) i was so happy so now i have my 2 summer mixes and ive tried them in cd players and they work so im happy. i feel accomplished because I didnt give up.
Im a strong believer in pushing through and keep trying and not giving up. I truly believe if we give up we wouldnt reach our true goals in life and we wouldnt ever end up truly happy. If you don't give up you can accomplish and achieve so many things in your life and maybe even end up with your soulmate. its persistence, determination, and along with those you have to have motivation, and my motivation is i want to be happy and reach my own stars. So take these words and keep trying. Hold on. Keep holding on through the pain and the rain, the happy and the sad, the good and the bad, don't let anything bring you down. Dance if you have to, sing if thats what it takes, Laugh often and smile as much as u can, even if you dont want to (trust me it does work even if u dont think so), and remember this
"dance like no one is watching,
sing like no one is listening,
love like youve never been hurt before,
like heaven begins tomorrow!"
ALWAYS PERSIST, NEVER GIVE UP :)
~<3 your sunshine girl :) Love ya.
Hey guys :)
I know this blog is early but I wont be available til next friday and I didn't want to have to skip a week!
so this weeks topic is giving up, or should i say not giving up. hahaha.
"Never let the fear of striking out,
keep you from playing the game."
this is one of my favorite quotes. when you fall down just get right back up like the saying,
"its not about waiting for the storm to pass,
its about learning to dance in the rain"
These two quotes are the truest quotes i have ever heard or known! when life gets you down dance through it work through it push through it don't give up and lose hope. don't let anything bring you down. now if you have a broken heart or lost someone close to you or you just need to cry by all means let it out... but don't let it take over your entire life cuz then you will fall apart and you'll end up feeling like your alone in a dark room... and youll probly feel that way for a while. you have to keep yourself going. encourage yourself to do fun things. like when im upset i listen to my favorite songs. I personally believe music is the ultimate happiness meaning no matter what mood your in it will cheer u up or just make your day better. Life without music would be like cake without icing or summer without the sun or the beach. what kind of world would that be? we cant live without music find a song you like or maybe a few burn them to ur i-pod or cd and listen to them whenever ur down but it has to be an uplifting favorite never grow old and most importantly FUN song, like california girls i love rolling my windows down and blairing it in the car, or breakaway by kelly clarkson because its inspiring. Never give up on yourself. and dont let a guy (or a girl) bring you down because God has so much in store for us. and because the one is out there you have to let them find you. You deserve so much. You are too beautiful to cry. You are too good for heartbreak. Push through it no matter how hard it is. I did it, so i know you can! just know your true love is looking for you. Wait for them.
In another sense, don't ever give up on tasks you do. If you do, you may not get to where you want to be in life. My Best Friend took a really hard test for a Nursing program and didn't pass but she didnt give up she got right back up and is taking it again. and again. until she makes it. because thats her future and her passion. What would have happened if Thomas Edison gave up on the lightbulb, or if Stevie Wonder gave up on music, What would our world be then? My dad wouldnt be a doctor if he gave up. cuz there were many times he tried and failed but he kept trying. I wouldnt be the strong person i am today if i gave up on myself when this jerk broke my heart. I wouldnt be even closer to my dream of working with animals if i gave up when i started falling in Chemistry.
For the past two days i have been trying to make these two cds. 35 songs TOTALL. Our computer sucks and is super slow and nothing works on it cuz its got almost no memory left. So you can imagine making these cds from an itunes playlist would be hell. oh and i forgot to mention that our cd burner is broken. so now i bet your thinking wow ur crazy and stupid to try to make cds when u already know it wont work. hahaha well yes i am crazy but hey i didnt give up it didnt work at all yesterday and i tried over and over and over again and i tried many different things i just couldnt figure it out i knew there had to be some loophole, some way to get it to work. so today i got back on when i woke up and when i stuck the cd in the computer guess what popped up i-tunes... now wait a minute i never tried i-tunes... and well guess what it worked :) yay but i couldnt get the second cd to work its been driving me crazy all day its taking me hours and i wanted to give up but i knew that since i got the first cd there had to be some way to get the second one. so i kept trying and hours later WAHLA i got it :) i was so happy so now i have my 2 summer mixes and ive tried them in cd players and they work so im happy. i feel accomplished because I didnt give up.
Im a strong believer in pushing through and keep trying and not giving up. I truly believe if we give up we wouldnt reach our true goals in life and we wouldnt ever end up truly happy. If you don't give up you can accomplish and achieve so many things in your life and maybe even end up with your soulmate. its persistence, determination, and along with those you have to have motivation, and my motivation is i want to be happy and reach my own stars. So take these words and keep trying. Hold on. Keep holding on through the pain and the rain, the happy and the sad, the good and the bad, don't let anything bring you down. Dance if you have to, sing if thats what it takes, Laugh often and smile as much as u can, even if you dont want to (trust me it does work even if u dont think so), and remember this
"dance like no one is watching,
sing like no one is listening,
love like youve never been hurt before,
like heaven begins tomorrow!"
ALWAYS PERSIST, NEVER GIVE UP :)
~<3 your sunshine girl :) Love ya.
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